It was bound to happen

I just knew everything was going along too smoothly LOL!  I picked up my meds and some of them were covered just not the one I wanted to be covered.  I can’t complain too much because we have saved over $400.00 so far but the Puregon wasn’t and that was the big one.   I am going to try to call my insurance rep tomorrow to see why it wasn’t and make a minor stink about it.  The policy says Infertility Meds with a lifetime of $4000.00.  I am using the Puregon for IF so to me it should be covered.  We’ll see what happens but I won’t let it get to me, for some reason I just knew this was going to be an issue.

Marvelous Marvelon

It seems funny to be posting a picture of these again!  It was just over 2 years ago when I posted with the same title and this picture:Different counter top (I really wish I still had that one)  but the same pills.   So tonight I will begin taking this ironic little pill and hopefully get pregnant!

Keeping my fingers crossed

I picked up my BCP’s yesterday and I should be getting the rest of my meds tomorrow or Monday.  I am keeping my fingers crossed that the insurance will cover the meds like it says it will.  I am hopeful but I’m not stupid.  I’ll believe it when I have them in my hot little hands for a fraction of the cost.  We’ll see soon enough!

I'm back in the ring!

Now I have that AC/DC song "back in black" playing on my head! Anyways, AF was there to greet me this morning and so I called in with my day 1. Next they called me back to get my credit card #, heaven forbid they do anything before you pay for the cycle LOL. $8,300.00 later they call me back again with my schedule. I will start the BCP's on Friday and take them until July 16th. On July 10th I will start taking the suprefact shots. I go in for my baseline b/w on the 24th and if everything is good with those #'s I will start my stims that day. So it looks like the ER will be the first week of August. Which means I should know if I am pregnant or not by mid to late August. EEK! Fingers crossed!

Tapping my Fingers

Still waiting on my damb AF! That wench never shows up when you want her to and always appears when you don't want her to! AF YOU SUCK!!!

Could time go by any slower?

Just when I thought time was going by so quickly it seems to have slowed to a crawl this past week! I mean come on, WTF, LOL!? AF is due on Monday but at this rate I am guessing she will be late. I think once I hear back from the nurse and she says that I can start the BCP's I will be fine... ya right. Atleast I will get my schedule and have a better idea of when ER & ET will be. I always find this part ironic... hoping for my AF to arrive so I can' start the BCP's and hopefully get pregnant!

And so it begins

I tried to fight it, I managed to for awhile, but I’m losing now.  From here on out IVF will slowly consume me.  I have already looked over the calendar today trying to figure out when my schedule will be.  I entered my cycle stats in the computer and have it ready for my new stats for comparison.  I have a rough estimate figured out of a possible due date!(I know that is so jumping the gun but I did it last time too LOL)  I have already joined an IVF board.  This time around will be different though, I have Taylor and she will definitely keep me preoccupied most of the day.  It’s those nap and bed times that I worry about LOL!!   Looks like I might have to start the goals up again.

Good to go…

We have been given the green light with my RE!  I am to call in with my day 1, which should be some where between the 22nd and the 25th.  In times like these though I usually expect to be late so by at least the end of the month I expect to be starting the BCP’s.  There is a chance that we will be delayed or pushed back a month depending on their schedule.  Hopefully this won’t be the case, but if it is it just means I could get my blood work & ultrasounds done in Kingston. 

He asked me if I was hoping to be a satellite patient or if I wanted to start sooner.  I said “actually…. I was hoping to call in with my next day 1”.  He snickered and said it shouldn’t be a problem.  I think he understands that once we get IVF on the brain it can’t start soon enough LOL. 

Our % chances have decreased since the first time we cycled but it is still 45%.  That is 20% higher than the average fertile couple so we can’t be unhappy with that.  I am going into this cycle not expecting to fail but at the same time not expecting to succeed.  DH and I have decided that this will be our last IVF attempt and if it fails we will be sad but at the same time we are totally fulfilled with Taylor.  I thought that when the time came to make this decision I would be devastated but I am actually okay.  I feel relieved and content with this decision (for know anyways, LOL).  I know that feelings can change but I really think I will not change my mind.  I am a total planner and when I have one I just feel peaceful.  This plan will not deter me from stressing and over analyzing everything about my cycle but it will relax me once the transfer is done (if we make it that far).  LOL, I am going on and on about it failing!  Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely would not bother doing this if I didn’t think I could get pregnant, I can, and have!  I really want to have another baby, BADLY, I just know it may not happen and after some sadness I will be okay. 

The closer you get...

Only 2 weeks and 1 day before our appointment with Dr. Min. I can't believe that time has gone by that quickly. However, I am feeling much different this time around. I am extremely nervous and anxious about the whole ordeal. I was so happy and excited the first time... I can't be a sattelite patient this time so I am going to have to go to Ottawa for all of my b/w & u/s's. Do I get up super early in the morning (5:00 am) and drive there or should I stay at a hotel the night before and drive home afterwards. Will Mike & Taylor come with me? How long does Mike need to take off of work? Will I be late? Will Taylor be okay? How many inspections does this mean Mike will miss? Can we afford to stay overnight in the hotels? How grumpy am I going to be if I get up that early? Should I bring Taylor to the appointment on the 2nd? Waaaaayy to many unanswered questions that I have been trying to ignore for weeks. I am such a planner and I can't stand not knowing what to do! I really think I need to talk to Mike about it all but sometimes he just makes things worse LOL!!! To be even more of a downer I haven't even talked about the whole rollercoaster of emotions that goes along with IVF! Will it work? How many follicles do I have? What's my E2? I hope I don't mess up the injections! How big are they? When will I get to trigger? How many eggs did they get? Will they be mature? Will they fertilize? Will they keep dividing? How many are left? Will it be a 3 or 5 day transfer? Will I have any to transfer? How good of quality are they? Will one implant? I could go on forever LOL!! I think in order for me to feel better about things I need to get a plan in regards to travelling to Ottawa every other day and as I get closer to trigger, everyday. Ultimately, I think staying in the hotel the night before would be better. It might be an added expense but atleast I will be able to function and not be so grumpy from lack of sleep. The meds already take a toll on the old attitude, I better not make it worse and be tired too! Now to break the bad news (spending $) to Mike. LOLOLOL!!!

Show & Tell

Here is a sampling of pictures that I took on one of my walks.  I love this time of year!  When I was a child I never appreciated what spring had to offer,  in fact, I didn’t like spring or fall.  I only liked summer and winter.  When I was a teenager my love of winter disappeared along with my days of tobogganing down the hills and making snow forts.  I only liked summer because of the beautiful weather.  Now that I am older I love what spring and fall offer.  I love seeing nature come to life and I look forward to the warmer weather.  Fall amazes me with all it’s vibrant colours.  It doesn’t hurt that it makes for gorgeous pictures either.  Now if only that darn winter season wasn’t so long…

Want to see what the rest of the class is showing?  Go to Stirrup Queens and have a look.

Time Flies? Or Not

Tick tock! I got the call. Glad I didn't hold my breath LOL! We still have the June 2nd appointment. Mike needs to go get some tests done, whoops, forgot about him! I was so busy getting tests done for myself that I never considered he would need blood tests done again. We did have the SA done but forgot about the blood. Oh well, no biggy. We have to go to Napanee for the conference though which I thought was weird cause we live in Kingston. She said it would be done in Kingston or Napanee, I just assumed it would be Kingston... we all know what happens when you ass-u-me though! So we have an hour and a half video conference call with Dr. Min at 10:00 and we will sign our consent forms then. After that we should be good to go... please be good to go.

News & Goals

Here are the after shots. You might notice that a picture of the top catch-all drawer is missing. Here's the reason, it will never be clean and organized. It pretty much looked like that the day I moved in. It will not get much better and it certainly could not stay organized if it did, I am far to lazy LOL! I had alot more room in my "pantry" than I thought I had. I decided that my cupboards could be organized too so that is the next goal. I willpost before pics of those soon.




I was just about to start our walk at Lemoine's Point when the cell phone rang. Thanks to Bell I have been forwarding all the house calls to my cell phone if I go out and today it paid off. I am currently booked for a June 2nd video phone conference LOL!! I feel so modern. It is a new thing they have started for long distance patients. I will be able to go to KGH and have my appointment in one of their conference rooms and I won't have to drive to Ottawa. Dr. Min's assistant also said we could just print out the consent forms and mail it to them. I told her that we already had all of our testing done and other things refreshed and she said that she was going to show Dr. Min my file and if he said everything looked good that she would call back and make the appointment earlier! Once that is done I should be able to call in with my day 1 and start. So If all goes well and the new appointment is before May 18th I just might be starting in May instead of June! Can you tell I am excited? I am also a bit of a pessimist too though, so I am not holding my breath on that either. I am quite happy to be able to start in June, things are going so much faster compared to the first time around.

I have an unusual amount of storage space and I just can't seem to keep it organized! You would think with all that space everything would have it's place, and well, it does, I just can't seem to put things back were the belong LOL! Once I get this stuff organized I am going to try to keep it that way. Even Mike is commetiing that we need to do a spring cleaning... I think it was a hint. Next week I will tackle the basement storage... dun, dun, dun!

Goal Complete!

Here is the almost finished product. I just have 7 loads of laundry to do (&%$@#^#^% CAT)!! Actually I have already done 5 loads today so I should be 100% done in another hour or two.

BEFORE




AFTER

Unofficial Appointment

Well I got sick of waiting so I called.  They did get my referral but they do things a little differently now.  They hired 1 person to make all appointments for all the RE’s.  So Dr. Min’s assistant told me that if the new lady didn’t call me within the next 2 weeks to give her a call back.  She also told me that Dr. Min didn’t have a really long waiting list and that I should clear my schedule for June 2nd or 5th.  JUNE 2ND OR 5TH!!??  That might not be long to her but it is to me LOL!!  Actually it isn’t that bad in comparison to the first cycle.  They called me the beginning of August and my initial appointment was scheduled for mid October so this time frame is much better.  Unfortunately that means the earliest I can do the transfer is July sometime.  Of course my cycle would not be on my side, my damn period is always inconveniencing me LOL!! 

As I said before, I will ask to be put on the cancellation list but since it is only a month and a bit away I doubt I will get in any sooner… bummer.  On the bright side it will give me a chance to lose a few pounds and get some caffeine free days in.  That also gives me a few more weeks to set some new goals. 

Progress??

   Is this progress?  Not really!  However, I have come to a few conclusions while getting to this point. 

1st.  I have too many hangers, or do I?  In fact, no I don’t.  I have too much laundry to do.  I have about 5 loads that needs to be done.  I guess that means I have more clothes than I need.

2nd.  I really miss my old closet!  I used to be able to get all these clothes in there and more, and still have room left for more.  I guess that’s just part of moving on but oh how I miss you my old closet buddy!  That and the hardwood floors but that story is for another post.

3rd.  That big box in the back of the closet is full of my maternity clothes.  Upon removal of the small box on top of it I discovered that the cat had pissed and shit in it!!  Filthy beast!!  I’m not sure if it was just a convenient place for him to go at the time or if it was a big F-U to me for having a baby.  Oh and make that 7 loads of laundry to do!        $#%^**&(&&$%$@ CAT!

4th.  Cat for sale.

Just kidding.  The filthy beast stays for now but he is getting farther & farther out on that thin ice everyday!

Another New Goal

Well it seems as though I have underestimated myself. Decembers #'s have been entered into Simply Accounting and it took me about a half an hour LOL! So I am setting yet another new goal. I will attempt to clean my closet. I have all sorts of things in there like toys, boxes, tub stuff, cat food and of course shoes and clothes. Below are a few pictures of my shame. I will post a picture of the compled task on Monday... or sooner.

Here's The Proof

Oops, I forgot to post the picture of the completed task! Without further adue, here it is...

BEFORE


AFTER


I suppose I should give myself a new goal for this week. It is to get December's information added to Simply Accounting.(Blush) Yes, I am that far behind with that too LOL!!

Mel's Show & Tell

It's time to show & tell again! Check out Stirrup Queens blog and join in on the fun!

I seem to be stuck in that waiting pattern. Time stands still when you are waiting for the clinic to call. So I have been trying to keep myself busy when I have some down time. Since my goal for the week was a fairly light one I have been passing time by editing some pictures in Elements. Thanks to this program I have been able to salvage some fairly dark pictures that otherwise would have been deleted from my camera. So I just felt like thanking the makers of Photoshop Elements for helping me pass some time and saving a few dark pictures! I wanted to get it lighter but I am such an amateur and everything I tried made it look unnatural.



It's time to show & tell again! Check out Stirrup Queens blog and join in on the fun!

Baby Swag!

Here is a picture of a crib that I am trying to win. Do I need it? Not so much... Taylor already has a crib, BUT hopefully soon enough I will need it! Othewise what they heck am I doing IVF for?! So if you see an amazingly annoying amount of posts with the words Bellaziza's Favorite Things in it you'll know why. If you would like a chance to win this crib head over to Bellaziza's Favorite Things and just try and beat me on the # of entries LOL!!



Here's a picture of the stack of reports that I have been neglecting for months now. I have sorted them into year and month (yes, it's been since last year, LOL!) and I just have to 3 hole punch them and put them into the binders that I bought last night. I will post another picture of the completed task just so you all know I did it and to force myself to do it! Still waiting for that call from the clinic...

Things I love Thursday

I love making headbands for my DD! Or maybe I just love taking pictures of her with them on. Either way I am addicted. I wish she would keep them on for more than 5 minutes though...

Do you want to share what you love? Go to Diaper Diaries if you do.